Emma Watson recently spoke about her split from Matt Janney, saying she had to take time to figure out how to be alone after the breakup.

The former Harry Potter star may seem like she has it all together, but with some things, she’s just like us, and that includes dealing with what she calls a “horrendous” split from her boyfriend. For Watson, that included going to a retreat in the Rocky Mountains and taking a vow of silence for a week.

“I felt really uncomfortable. Even before my relationship ended, I went on a silent retreat because I really wanted to figure out how to be at home with myself,” Emma said.

While that may sound extreme to some, it’s important to keep in mind that Emma is not your average young woman. Being in the public eye takes a toll on many relationships, and being an international superstar adds another level of craziness. Every move the actress makes is carefully studied and speculated upon, and rumors fly around the web every day as to who she might be dating. Earlier this year it was Prince Harry.

“Harry didn’t want her to feel like she was put on the spot. A party also shows he’s fun and not stuffy. He’s smitten – and it’s more than Emma’s looks,” a source said.

Emma said in an interview with Vogue UK that the idea–put forth by the media–that her success intimidates the men in her life simply demeans them.

“The boyfriends or partners I’ve had have generally made me feel really cherished. They’ve built me up. I certainly haven’t found that with doing all that I do or being all that I am, that I’ve struggled in my love life. I just think it’s very patronizing towards men. It undermines them,” Emma Watson said.