Former 80’s child star Corey Feldman has opened up on the horrific sexual abuse both he and fellow star Corey Haim suffered as kids. Feldman and Haim both starred in The Lost Boys and License to Drive together. Feldman discusses the sexual abuse, drug abuse and parental abuse he endured in his childhood in his new book Coreyography: A Memoir, which comes out October 28.

Feldman’s abuse started when he was just a child. As young as age 4, he remembers his mom verbally abusing him by calling him fat and force-feeding him diet pills. At age 7, after he started landing regular commercial acting gigs, the pressure and abuse from his mom were at a high. Feldman recalls how his mother wouldn’t let him play outside, lest he get hurt and lose a job. When he did lose a movie role once, Feldman remembers how his mom chased him with a stick.

“She’s bent at the waist, ramming the pole under the cotton eyelet dust ruffle…jabbing at my ribs, my arms, my face,” Feldman said. “My skin is raw and bleeding. I think that, maybe, she is serious. She really does want to kill me.”

The two Coreys met on the set of The Lost Boys when they were both around age 15, which is around the time the sexual abuse started for Feldman. While Haim and Feldman talked about the film Lucas, Haim began talking about how he was sexually abused on the set and came on to Feldman, according to the book.

“At some point during the filming, he explained an adult male convinced him that it was perfectly normal for older men and younger boys in the business to have sexual relations, that it was what all ‘guys do,'” Feldman says. “So they walked off to a secluded area between two trailers, during a lunch break for the cast and crew, and Haim, innocent and ambitious as he was, allowed himself to be sodomized.”

“So…” Haim told Feldman, “I guess we should play around like that, too?” Feldman says he was quick to point out that was “not what kids do, man.”

It's gonna b a really tough journey the next few weeks! I NEED ALL YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT RIGHT NOW!!! AND SO DOES HAIMS FAMILY N MINE Thanx!

— Corey Feldman (@Corey_Feldman) October 20, 2013

Thanx 4 the support guys, I'm here n Melbourne crying as I read these stories, 1 thing to write them & another 2 hear them out loud!

— Corey Feldman (@Corey_Feldman) October 20, 2013

Despite that, this didn’t stop Feldman from being abused himself, unfortunately. Feldman says he was abused by an assistant his dad hired, identified as “Ron Crimson” (a pseudonym) in the book, a man who coaxed him into taking cocaine and other drugs and repeatedly sexually abused the teen. “I don’t know why I couldn’t confront Ron, but I was consumed with guilt. I felt like the whole thing was my fault,” Feldman writes. “I desperately wanted him to stop, but I was afraid of losing my friend.”

While both Haim and Feldman have been open about their childhood abuse before, this is the first time that Feldman has gone into such graphic detail. Haim passed away from an accidental drug overdose back in 2010.

As for allowing kids to become actors, Feldman had the following to say: “People always ask me about life after childhood stardom. What would I say to parents of children in the industry? My only advice, honestly, is to get these kids out of Hollywood and let them lead normal lives.”

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