Nigella Lawson, TV personality and food expert extraordinaire, finally spoke about her past drug use and the court trial involving her two former assistants. She spoke to Amy Robach of “Good Morning America.”

Although Lawson admitted to going through a tough time in the past year, she’s putting everything into perspective, she said.

“There are people going through an awful lot worse and to dwell on any of it would be self-pity, I don’t like to do that,” she said. “I’ve eaten a lot of chocolate, had a very good Christmas and I’m into the New Year.” The 53-year old English native said her main priority through the trial and the many accusations she faced were to protect her little ones.

“My only desire really was to protect my children as much as possible which I wasn’t always alas, you know, I couldn’t do,” she admitted. “To have not only your private life, but distortions of your private life put on display is mortifying.”

Last month, her former employees Elisabetta and Francesca Grillo, were sued by Lawson’s ex-husband and art collector Charles Saatchi for using the couple’s credit cards for expensive shopping trips. The two sisters faced a $1.02 million fraud suit, but were ultimately acquitted. However, during the trial Lawson had to admit to using cocaine and smoking pot in front of her children, as she was one of the witnesses in the trial.

“I did [feel like I was on trial] but it’s one of the niceties of the English legal system that you’re not allowed any counsel if you’re a witness,” she said. “But maybe it will change. Maybe that’s good.”

Also during the trial “The Taste” host spoke about the choking incident that took place in June of 2013, when her husband grabbed her throat inside of a restaurant. Plus, she admitted to using cocaine three years ago after another fight with Saatchi to escape for a bit. “I felt subjected to acts of intimate terrorism,” she said. “A friend of mine offered me some cocaine and I took it [but] it completely spooked me.”

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