In a clip from the November 23 episode of Kourtney and Khloe Take the Hamptons,  the 30-year-old Khloe opens up to mom Kris Jenner about her marriage to Lamar Odom. Khloe has been struggling with the fact that her dream of being a wife and mother by the time she turned 30 didn’t really pan out. Kris attempts to console her daughter, but after suggesting that Khloe should not have moved too quickly after separating from Odom, Khloe gets emotional.

“Don’t say I moved to something so quickly because you know for how many f***ing years I’ve been dealing with something,” Khloe said. “You have no idea how I feel every day. If I had my way, I would still be married to Lamar, like even right now, today, I wish I was still married to him.” According to a HollywoodLife source, Bruce Jenner wants Khloe to take Lamar back. “Bruce is playing match maker and trying to level with Khloe. He thinks she should take Lamar back. Despite all the cheating, alleged drug use and his NBA career loss, Bruce still thinks Lamar’s good for Khloe and he let her know that,” said the source.

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According to reports, Khloe and Lamar’s divorce may be dismissed because of a lack of activity. Radar wrote, “On October 9, a notice of case review default was submitted by Judge Scott Gordon, notifying Kardashian that the divorce petition could be dismissed for failure to take any action in the case”. The couple signed a prenuptial agreement when they got married. It’s been reported that Lamar waived any claims to his wife’s fortune.

Khloe will be entitled to $500,000 for each year married to Lamar and she could also petition for financial support. She will also remain a beneficiary on a $10 million life insurance policy that Lamar has.