Christy Mack opened up pretty quickly about how badly the alleged attack from War Machine messed her up physically. In a tweet just days after the whole thing went down, she told the world what happened.

“He made me undress and shower in front of him, then dragged me out and beat my face. I have no recollection of how many times I was hit, I just know my injuries that resulted from my beating.

“My injuries include 18 broken bones around my eyes, my nose is broken in 2 places, I am missing teeth and several more are broken. I unable to chew, or see out of my left eye. My speech is slurred from my swelling and lack of teeth. I have a fractured rib and severely ruptured liver from a kick to my side. My leg is so badly injured I have not been able to walk on my own. I also attained several lesions from a knife he got from my kitchen. He pushed the knife into me in some areas such as my hand, ear, and head. He also sawed much of my hair off of the handle and continued to threaten me with the blade. I believed I was going to die.”

But now she tells ESPN that her decision to post that information and the accompanying photos to Twitter was frowned upon, een by people in her camp.

“This is not acceptable,” Christy Mack told herself in the hospital. “I’m not going to sit around in my hospital bed and have people say that I did something wrong. This is what happened.”

“It wasn’t OK for people to say I got what I deserved when they had no idea what my struggle was,” Christy Mack says. “My people told me afterward that I shouldn’t have (put out the photos and her statement). But I needed to write that.”

In a shocking confession she now reveals the psychological effect of the beating.

“I didn’t look in the mirror for weeks. Just feeling my face, I knew it wasn’t right. So when I’d look in the mirror, it’s not me — that person wasn’t me. It’s so hard to go every day without being you anymore.”

Some people say Christy Mack deserved to be beaten, or that she is too hard on War Machine. She begs to differ.

“I did nothing wrong — it wasn’t like I said, ‘Please hit me again,'” Christy Mack says. “He was abusive, and people can’t see that being the abuser is always going to be wrong. There’s nothing that makes it OK. And people are looking for that one reason.”