Being a mother could bring out the best and the worst in you, especially if you’re doing it on your own.

Sienna Miller had shared her motherhood experiences, the good and the bad, on Vogue.

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“Obviously when you have a baby it’s the most incredible experience but your life is also catapulted into this chaos and you are exhausted,” Miller told Vogue. “I could literally get on this table and fall asleep.” In fact, she’s too busy with being a mother, she doesn’t have time even for shopping. “I don’t remember the last time I went shopping. I swear to god, I wear jeans and trainers and a T-shirt most days,” Miller said. Miller recently separated with longtime partner Tom Sturridge and is now raising their 3-year-old daughter Marlowe on her own.

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But even though it’s hard for her, she wouldn’t trade motherhood for anything else.

“It was like, ‘There you are — that’s what I have been missing.’ Like we’re both in on something only we know. An amazing sense of being complicit with a little being,” Miller said about welcoming her daughter.

As of now, Sienna Miller is trying to manage her time for work and raising her lovely daughter.

“Everything’s shifting,” she explained to the mag. “It’s actually been the s**ttiest year, and amazing. It’s always yin and yang. I feel like if you’re excelling in one area, it’s hard to manage both and I do feel like the work is going really well.”

And just like any other mom, Sienna Miller wants to be better.

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Miller told Vogue, “I’d like to be better at managing things; I’d like to be more super, although we’re never going to feel it, even if we are.” Miller also said, “That’s the curse of motherhood, we just run ourselves ragged. I’m just trying to get a sense of what that guilt is. I sometimes feel like it’s a totally invented emotion. It’s strange to be punishing ourselves this way. It’s not healthy.”